Pull the Plug
As I’m booking my next business trip, I’m beginning to wonder what the heck I’m doing. And not that I’m not addicted to earning airline miles…and room service. But, as a few of you know, I’m struggling with my decision to remain working full-time. And the volume of this struggle has increased in the past six months to an intolerable level. I want it on the record that I have always, always worked full time – All throughout my pregnancies, returning within 3 months of the kids’ births – that’s more than 13 years.
Fortunately, I do have an understanding boss who doesn’t give me hassle if I’m in a bit late one morning or need to work from home on occasion, but the fact is, I still have to report into work and actually work, leaving precious little time for all of the other things I have to do to be a mom, a wife, and run a household.
I’m feeling this undeniable pull to “be there” for my kids and that they need me more now than ever. My hormonal-oldest will be in 8th grade next school year and then it’s off to high school where he’ll get even busier, and I see our time together quickly diminishing. My middle one will be in 6th grade and had a tough time during this school year with being organized and staying focused. As my mother seems to constantly remind me, he’s the insecure one and the one who needs a few extra hugs and cuddles. And my daughter will be in 4th grade and is happy as ever, so full of joy, and really keeps herself together – minus the hatred for combing her hair and taking baths.
And then there’s my husband. If you know him, you know that he loves me to take care of him. And I embrace that and would love to do it – but there’s just not enough time in the day. So, clothes wait for weeks to be taken to the drycleaners, we eat out way more often than we should, the house is constantly messy, the dog waits to be walked (or doesn’t wait if you know what I mean), and on and on.
We have come to an compromise, and he is now OK with me quitting… but asked me to give him a bit more time. Unfortunately, this is a “moving” timeline, and I am not confident that he’s going to be really OK with it when it actually happens. And I don’t even know how to make it happen…. It’s what I want, but I’m afraid to “pull the plug.”
So… what do you think? I always love hearing from you!
do it! if you can make it work financially…go for it! your kids are only young for a short period of time….you will stay busy even if you don’t have a ‘job’ to go to…you can use your talents to create opportunities to bring in revenue…while making it on your own terms, within your own schedule!
Oh, I know I will stay busy. I really don’t know how I find time for anything now (which may explain why I’m going tonight for my first haircut in over six months…).
You gotta jump. It was really hard for me to let go of that, when I decided to stay home, but the change in me, my daughter, son, and hubby has been well worth the loss in pay. You can do it!
I believe in you, you both can pull the plug. But if you are waiting for the right time, the right time will never come. you just have to jump!
Good Luck!
You are right – I *am* waiting for the “right” time, and it’s just not going to come. And if I continue waiting, nothing will happen.
Thanks for the comment friend! Hope you’re well!!
my prayers are with you and your family.
Thank you. We need prayer.