In not a small way
April 22, 2012
There’s a place in the house where several pictures of Sofia are beautifully displayed.
At times I strategically place other photo frames in front. And at other times I sit and stare and it’s a knife through my heart.
Tonight I am caught off guard and it hits me, nearly a physical feeling of panic and pain. And, of course, the tears flow.
And in this moment I glance at Baby who just moments before is sleeping peacefully and she now stares at me intently with a big smile and begins to coo.
It’s almost as if she tells me Momma, you’re OK. I am here to make you feel better.
Her big eyes envelope me in pure love and are an unceasing reminder of the faith I hold.
In not a small way, she has saved me.
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Thank you for sharing this Sheri and letting wear your shoes for a brief moment. I don’t know what the purpose of grief is, but it is how we are built, to mourn and ache for those not here. I wish, I’m sure all your friends and family do, that we could take some of it from you, so you could carry less of it. Grief is a facet of motherhood, this way of carrying our children, housing them, no matter where they are in the universe. Sending love to you and Sofia right now, as always.
love you so much. big hugs & kisses.